This is a Sade classic. I didn't know that the vid is like a mini movie of a man who is an incorrigible playboy. Again, this is one of those songs that hits close to home but what the heck? Sade's got one of those coolest jazzy voice there is!

Lovingly dedicated to that incorrigible playboy. Heaven help you, when you fall...

Let the chase begin...

This is one of those painfully comforting songs I have ever come across. Well, let us not forget that Ben dear's debut album evolved on his personal relationship with this first love of his named Isabell. This song, according to him, is his most personal song in the album. Not only he was the one who produced it, if I am not mistaken, but he intently made this song raw and his voice and his playing of the piano are just so wholeheartedly done I can feel his emotion while he is singing this song. Can't help but confess here that this song made me bawl like hell one drunken night...

Made me also think on the side that this could make a very good excuse for leaving. Like, if I have to give a reason, it would definitely be this: I just need to follow the sun before I'll know if I'll see this another way. The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down and I don't want to drag you through the bottom.

Selflessly sorry excuse. Dramatic. Ouch.

I opted to post the video instead of the song because at least the video has a slideshow of four pictures of Ben dear. The first one made him look so mature, but the rest are still his good-'ol-boy-next-door look. Love it, love it, love it!:D

This song sounds like a cross between the Moffatts and Click Five, but I still love it anyway. It is such a happy song that I just love the way he begs to stay!! A happy serenade of some sort!

Lucky Isabell and Fern. Darn!!

     I ended up skipping work today.  Not because a lazy bone overpowered me and dragged me back to my bed, but my hormones finally took its toll on me, after a two month hibernation, on early Sunday morning[BFF's bday, of all days!! Happy Birthday, choy!!:P], which kept me bedridden 'til late morning.  The worst part is, I was unexpectedly infected by this plague my sibs have been suffering from for the past weeks.  I read and it has never been mentioned that it is airborne or something.  I never thought I would have it, since I have never had it and they always do, but here I am nursing a practically swollen left thigh since Thursday.  It got worse and worse until together with my hormones, kept me bedridden. It even hurts to walk.  Like every time I get up, I would suddenly feel blood rushing through my left thigh that I limp from pain whenever I try to walk a step or two...and then feel something wet on my behind thereafter.  I think it would be best if I don't elaborate further, but all I can say is, they go hand in hand with my hormones for two days now.  I just hope it doesn't get worse because the last thing I want to happen is to run out of blood...and that's all I can say for now!
      And man!  This is definitely as bad as a heartache!!  The only consolation in this kind of pain is that drugs and alcohol can really ease the pain until it is gone in another day or two.  Whereas the heartache, well...this is best left as it is in this entry!  No more sadder thoughts from now on!!:)
     As much as I want to spend this day in bed studying, I suddenly found myself bringing the laptop to my parents' bedroom surfing and ogling about this guy, who is figuratively giving me nosebleeds recently!!  If those funny Japanese expression on *ehem* perversion is real, I would've probably been bloodless now...even before these bloody nevermind came to me!!

     To all girls out there, I think you now know what I mean, right?xD  But seriously, this guy is literally more than just a pretty face.  And that is another entry to write about, so stay tuned!!

This version has been featured on several films already, one of which is in Neverland, which is a very touching flick. I have always loved this song. NO matter how cheesy the theme is and all, it someway, somehow gives me a positive vibe. Definitely one of the main reasons why I love this hottie sooooo much!!!

Three men: Pharell, Doug and Ben!! This may be a four year old article, but Ben's got a hot boy-next-door pose here!!hehehehehe!

And I just love him more and more each day!!ooooohlalala!!

This video features various artists, including Ben dear on violin!!

Nice song, too!! Dedicated to the Tsunami 2004 victims...

I would have to say this is one of my fave Ben Jelen interviews I have ever come across in You Tube. The reason? these words: beer, mom and dad and the Philippines!! Honestly, I don't know if I'll laugh or cry, but do judge if what he really meant on his statement...hehehehehe!!

This video features Ben dear promoting his debut album, singing the very much sought after "revolution," and him topless in his tour bus!![ooohlalala!]

Publicity articles claim that this is the only love song he made on his new record. Apparently, because there is like a heart living in the aquarium on this vid. But, if you are going to delve deeper into the lyrics, he is not only singing for the L word, but it also is about the environment. Like we must care especially those that are endangered because the last thing that we want to happen is to lose and miss them.

Now I am beginning to sound like an environmentalist...charing!:D Anyway, as far as the video is concerned, the concept is a bit cheesy...I sometimes cringe whenever I see him do some seizures and drop some petals on the floor...yaiks!!

Finally! I have found a full live version of this song...aside from the sessions @AOL[which I love dearly...like the "songer"hehehehehehehe!]. He gave a different treatment to this song, which is not bad, at all. Plus, he just looks soo good in black I can't help but drool over him on the side!!:P

One of those best love songs, I reckon!:D

2007.07.17 ben jelen at virgin megastore union

This is going to be a very challenging search for me. This song is from his EP "Rejected" and this, together with his remake of "Revolution" are absolutely difficult to find online. If I have to give one good reason why The United States is a must go, this will be it...and of course, those other bands that I practically grew up with and went indie...or were indie.

This song has 2 versions. I chose this one because [1] his face is much clearer and adorable[oooohlalalala!] and [2] I love his shirt here!! the other vid also has a nice shirt but, this white one showed his bod which is a total eye sore...couldn't take my eyes off his arm and chest!!*sizzling sound*

2007.07.16 ben jelen at bowery ballroom, nyc

Ben dear [charing!hehehehehehe!!] mentioned in one of his interviews that this song is about his addiction. As to what it really is, let us just not hope it is not some strong drugs...or kinky red light sessions!!!hahahahahahaha!

Anyway, lyric-wise, I can pretty much relate to the song. The persona is meaning to break free from the bondage of pleasure that might eventually kill. The best part of this song is, it makes you feel more human because of this line

Keep me free, keep me away, keep me believable, keep me vulnerable

Goodness, I wish I am in this disposition all the time...*sigh*

It's about time we climb out of the wreckage...
                                                                  Wreckage.  Ben Jelen

Feel the smallest changes, within ourselves within our pulse
I feel it all around me, cause its inside us and it surrounds us
And as one we'll learn to curve before we break.
                                                                    Pulse.  Ben Jelen




     One of the biggest tragedies in life, I would have to say, is to discover that you have become someone that you hated.  With that, I mean there are some instances in your life that you told yourself "I will definitely not be like that,"  but in the end, you would realize that it happened otherwise.  I hate to admit it, but that was exactly what happened to me this week. This has been the longest week I've had, by far.  I thought it is not going to end...well, it hasn't end, yet, but I have never felt more exhausted like I do now.
     Most often than not, when people do not reciprocate, or worse, even acknowledge the effort you exerted, you can't help but be angry and try to find ways to retaliate.  It is an impulse reaction.  If you let your emotions rule over your temperament, that is always the outcome.  I didn't know I have always been like that all along.  As far as I know, I definitely made sure that I control my impulse and think lots of times before I do something.  Apparently, I am not.  When a particular circumstance, or even a person, is concerned, my emotions overpower me like a huge and heavy hollow block surprisingly handed over to me.  The sad part here is, the outcome is embarrassingly irreversible.  What's worse, I brought in more spectators in this chapter of my life.  It became a domino effect, one negative thing led to the other.  I was left with  no other choice but to give up, acknowledge my weakness, and just cry.  All of those negative feelings that I felt--pain, sadness, self-pity, fear and insecurity were just so overwhelming that it exhausted me.  I was even too exhausted to incorporate anger and hate already.  I believe I pretty much realize that even if I have become the person I don't want to be, at least I might be able to salvage something by not being angry and full of hatred in my being.  The last thing that I really want to become is to be bitter...I believe I have had enough of that.
     At first, I tried to fully avoid.  It was hard.  I believe that made me more tired of moving on.  But then again I was suddenly told of positive thinking.  To put passion and sincerity on what I want to happen in my life.  Of course, in this case, I wanted to feel whole, complete, genuinely happy and of course, feel peace from within.  Another sad discovery is, I have always thought that fulfilling the fantasy I created would be enough to complete me.  To fully tell myself and everyone around me that I have lived the life I wanted to be.  I was wrong.  And the main reason why is that my fantasy didn't include me and what I really want to happen to ME.  I never expected the gravity of the punishment I have to serve by being selfless.  I ended up not really knowing who I really am...and what I really want.  Or if I fully want this thing that I thought I want so much [should this make sense].
     Now I am more determined than ever to make a stand, to have an intimate relationship with myself, and talk to myself more often now than before, and ask myself every now and then, to know if these things that I am thinking, wishing, and even doing right now are the things that will complete me.  There is indeed no one who can complete me but me.  If this someone out there is out to fill the gap/s, I think the concept here is loving and accepting me for who I am and what I have become.  I was told that when you love yourself fully and genuinely, it would ooze out from your system and shall eventually spread to people who see you like an outbreak.  I wanted that to happen to me.  It will definitely be hard to pick up the pieces again, especially after all these years, but as what everyone says, it is definitely never too late.  I was advised that I now take the blame to myself.  That all of these happening is entirely my doing. There is nothing more, or less I can do about it except to apologize to the people who saw and felt it [at least, the gravity of the outcome], and finally, apologize to myself and try my very best thereafter on becoming a better person.  The only difference this time is that, I will make sure that if I am going to do some mental and emotional makeover, it will definitely not be designed anymore to please the people around me, but I will make sure that I would be able to please me on this change.  A total cool change, as what an old song goes. 
     Although, there is still part of me that wishes that I won't be doing this growing up thing alone, but in life, a person fully grows up if he/she realizes it and pursues it alone.  I guess I should not defy Fate on this, this time.  I still really do not know how this part of my life will end, but one thing I can really assure to myself and to the people who loves me is that I will definitely walk through this.  They may be baby steps, despite my old age and all, but I will make sure that those tiny steps that I'm going to make will definitely lead me to love and my nirvana. 
     And I am definitely certain that that is the faint light I am now seeing in the horizon.    
        

Ben's performance at the Virgin Megastore...somewhere in NYC, I read. I would have to say this is MY song at the moment. I just love the message this song brings...because in the first place, this song is his message to us to put a little heart to the only planet we call home...Mother Earth. Of course, it can also be interpreted as a love song, but the bottom line here is, that L word certainly is an unfathomable one!!

Okay, enough about that. Let's focus on dear Ben this time. I just love the way he sings here. Even though it is live, his voice is just so clear I am admiring his talent and passion to music and his advocacy to the highest level! He is a Biology graduate. He pursued his passion for music. He is running a foundation that aims to spread awareness to our environment.

Now nobody would call him loser and unsuccessful now, right? He's just the perfect example of pursuing what he learned in college..and his ultimate love all at the same time!:D

Daym!!:D

Electronic Press Kit for Ben Jelen and his new album on Custard Records, 'Ex-Sensitive'.

Oh, yes, i am so into this guy!! If someone can send me a copy of his cover of tracy chapman's revolution, I will be forever grateful!!

This latest album of his I would have to say is more raw, more organic, and definitely less of a pop feel. Absolutely indie. Truly worth checking out. Too bad I wasn't able to upload this on torrent when I had the chance. tsk.

Anyway, might as well try scouting out record shops. Goodluck to me on this!hahay!

Goodness gracious. I love him already....:)

This article may be almost half a decade old, but it is about Ben Jelen's debut album[which I am listening for like, forever in my iPod] and I just love what was basically written about him here. Imagine the sensitive spirit of John Mayer inhabiting the body of a Calvin Klein underwear model. Oooohlalala!!

Let us not also forget the fact that this album is one of his most personal one, as of press time. Made me pretty much inspired to further unleash this literary side of mine--that is, if I indeed have one...hahahay!!

His official website. Even during his maverick days, his site gives us a chance to stream some of his songs from his latest album. Last time, his version of Tracy Chapman's "revolution" was included. Too bad, i can't even find a stream of his version online...one of those remakes that i love better than the original...hehehehehe!!

...being a straight male gay rights advocate and the highs and lows of being pretty face in the music biz.
I am pretty much dense especially in spotting gay men, but when my sister suspected that my new found obsession is one, I started to worry. I am not a homophobe, but having more than two gay sanity savers is what? too much, i should say? And please, not this cute , talented environmentalist/singer/songwriter. Who knows? He may be the juan for me!hahahahahahaha!!*hallucinates*
On a serious note, I love this article not because it pretty much confirms Ben Jelen's "straightness," but I also love the way he talks about his passion, Mother Earth and Music. I just hope I can find his independent release album somewhere...a zip file of it will do, really!hahahaha!
And this guy really is one of a kind. Not everyone can be overly romantic and green-minded[no kinky thoughts, please!!:p] all at the same time!! Love you, Ben!!:D

PS: Check out his abs in one of his pics!! hot to the highest level!!oooohhhlala!!:D

There is just something about this cute lad that relaxes me everytime I would realize that my brain is in its stormy state once again...especially while I am trying to fall asleep. Usually, in times like this, I would take my iPod and listen for half an hour or so to at least lull me to sleep. Good thing I was able to find his debut album online...hehehehehehe!

This is one of my ever favorite songs, discovered during one of my low moments in the big city. Now that I realize that I am back to that sorry state once again[daym!], I can't help but listen to this over and over and over again. Just love the first line of this song!! If only I can just throw this song at the root cause of all these crap...tsk

And I also would have to say that the video has just an out-of-the-ordinary concept. Imagine lots of people coming out from the grand piano...kewl!!:D